So I am from now on, going to write my thoughts and feelings on here, myspace is a thing of the past and I find very little use for it these days. It seems that myspace has become a thing of the past.

Life for me as I look back at the last ten months has changed so drastically, I myself have changed in more ways then I can think. I think one of the most important is that I finally accomplished what I set out to do. I was hired with an airline, and now I am directly responsible for commuting people from one point to another...I am responsible for their safety and in short their lives.

Whats even more amazing was what came with the new job. Days off, health insurance, new friends, co workers who I love to death and a company that actually cares about me, and is ok with who I am. I hated moving to Alaska, but it was the only option I had at the time other then to stay where I was. I have learned over the years that in order to take a step ahead, you sometimes have to take a step back. I miss California so much, I love it there and I fully plan on moving back after my two year contract is up with PenAir.

I received my SIC type rating in the Saab 340, which officially marks the end of the long and painful process I went through to get it. When I look back, I almost cannot believe I went through all that and made it, but I guess it goes to show how string I actually am. Two weeks of indoc, three weeks of systems with a final exam that allot of people fail and get told to go home. Then two weeks in the sim with the biggest ass whole on earth...Then twelve hours of flying with five different check airman only to be signed of by the same ass whole. I look back in disbelieve almost. How did I do that? I still do not know how I was able to keep myself together, but I did, and I am so glad the hard part is finally over. I now have 350 hours in the Saab, and I am very comfortable flying the 30 passenger turbo prop around. I have fun, and I thank god that my prayers where answered.

I still go to church as much as I can, I find nower days that I spend allot of time their. Mostly praying for others, my mother, my sister, Rene and his family. I spoke to him a few days ago, only to learn that his mother is not making life for him very easy. It makes me thankful that I have my mother, and it makes me realize once again that things could always be worse.

Both of my tattoos have healed now, I keep forgetting to take pictures of them and put them on facebook, I just keep getting distracted. I have lost some weight, but I find that I am gaining it back now in muscle, but I am going to try to stay under 200 lbs, but I dont know if I can do it, since I am a bulky guy to begin with.

The love life department for me has been very rocky, Joe broke my hart, and now I am just focusing on myself. Advice Rene gave me and for which I am very thankful for. I am so happy that I am talking to him, i thank god every day.

The guys I do meet are all the same. It is depressing for me, they are only interested in sex. Nothing else. Relationship? They really have no idea what that is. They don't even bother to get to know me at all. It irritates me to no end, its depressing and sad, and it makes me wonder if I will ever find anyone. I know also that because I live up here in Alaska that the men I do talk to in the lower 48 usually are not interested in talk to me once they find out where I live. One more reason to move back to California after I am done here.

Other then that, I received flight instructor of the year for the state of California, I had the highest pass rate in the state. I am going to Oklahoma City to the FAA main office for training as a DPE and hopefully soon I will be making extra money. Which will allow me to do allot of things.

As for my hobbies, I want to go home in November and get my Violin and start playing again as I was so good in high school. I finally figured out how to get my bike up here from California. I plan on dismantling it piece by piece and having it shipped up here via fedex. Since I get a 90% discount with them, it should cost me close to nothing. I also found a shop in Santa Ana that will chrome all the parts I want. When I am done rebuilding the engine and all my bike is going to be the best looking up here for sure. I love working on it, its a hobby of mine.

Tomorrow I was supposed to be on reserve, but when I called in and check the recorded schedule I learned that I have a 950am cold bay and sand point triangle to fly with Dan Cook who is really cool, one of the better Captains I would say. After that I am coming home and taking a nap then going to the gym as usual. Time for bed I will revisit this tomorrow.