Tossing and Turning

Yesterday was a very long day for me. 3298 to Dutch with a stop in King Salmon, then 207/208 to King Salmon again. over eight hours of block time in one day. My mind keeps thinking about Ismale. I can't seem to get my mind off of him. I suppose I was so taken by him, thats why I can't sleep now. We have been texting back and forth, sometimes he will start and then other times I will. The last day or so I have started the conversation.

I am afraid. Afraid of loosing him, like a bottle being washed away in the ocean. I told myself that no matter what, im not going to allow it to happen. He doesn't have facebook or myspace, so its not as easy to stay in touch with him. All I have is a phone number. It will be very interesting to see what happens. I know we live far apart, but regardless of what happens with him, I have decided that I am going to leave penair as soon as my contract is up. I am going to go try to go work for Air Wisconsin and fly the CRJ200. I know a bunch of people who work there, so I should be able to get a job easy.

The other good thing about that company is like penair they really don't look to hard at your driving record, and lord knows I need to clean mine up. I try to be as careful as possible. They also only do a 5 year background check, which doesn't really matter for me, but none the less thats the information I have found out so far. I am sure I will found out more as time goes buy.

As for the other guy I have been talking to Jose. He is really sweet, but he is to clingy for me. I always wants me to text him, and he constantly asks me what I am doing. I really like him, and hs cute, but I think he would drive me up a wall eventually.

The only other prospect is Chris. Him and I have been talking allot, and have known each other for a while. He is in the same profession as me and hes almost the same age as me. Our birthdays are almost on the same day. Only two days apart. He actually wants to meet me. Whats funny is he is from Jersey, like Stephen was. Those Jersey boys lmao! Gota love them.

He got hired with Air Wisconsin, so I could possibly have an in with him, weather or not we date or not. Whats cool about him is that he wants the same things I want. He wants a LTR and wants to settle down and have a life with someone. Im excited to meet him, I used to work with him at ATP only he worked at a different location. So ironic.

We will see what happens, I have to fly to the pribbs this afternoon with Glen Hart......fun!

Found what I was not looking for...

For the first time in almost two and a half months, I finally decided to go out to the club. What transpired after that was something I will never forget.

I walk in, and run into a guy who I used to have the hots for, Jose. He had not seen me in several months. I talked with him for a bit, and then went on with socializing with my roommates and their friends.

At some point that evening, I walked out on to the dance floor and started dancing. While I was dancing I looked over to the other side of the room, and saw a very handsome man looking straight at me. I tired to not pay attention, but I could not help myself. Later as me an Anthony were standing on the side of the dance floor talking. And this guy came over to me and stood right next to me. Anthony told me to talk to him, so I did....I could immediately feel the connection between us.

We talked for a while, then we danced. It was something. Then I found out Ismale was from out of town. From Chicago, born in San Deigo. He is a bottom, and hes Hispanic and speaks spanish and a few other langues.

We eventually go back to the hotel he was staying at which was right next store to Maurna's, the Sheraton. I spent the night, and we made out something awful. Omg, this guy was everything I was looking for and so much more.

He asked if he could spend the night at my house... Bruno a friend of mine in from Mass was staying at a friend's house, so it was ok. That day we got breakfast, and went to the Anchorage Museum, then we came back and hung out. The next day we went up to flat top, and almost got stuck, then came back and had lunch. He is a huge cuddle whore. I absolutely love it!

I am hoping a relationship turns up out of this, I really like him......allot.....allot. We talk via text everyday. So thats a good thing. I am willing to move for this guy, no problem. I wish he was here right now, I wish I could date him now. I wish I could kiss him once again, hold him again and make out with him again.

Ismale Munoz I miss you allot. We are like two peas in a pod. I really can't wait to see you again in Chicago.