Tossing and Turning

Yesterday was a very long day for me. 3298 to Dutch with a stop in King Salmon, then 207/208 to King Salmon again. over eight hours of block time in one day. My mind keeps thinking about Ismale. I can't seem to get my mind off of him. I suppose I was so taken by him, thats why I can't sleep now. We have been texting back and forth, sometimes he will start and then other times I will. The last day or so I have started the conversation.

I am afraid. Afraid of loosing him, like a bottle being washed away in the ocean. I told myself that no matter what, im not going to allow it to happen. He doesn't have facebook or myspace, so its not as easy to stay in touch with him. All I have is a phone number. It will be very interesting to see what happens. I know we live far apart, but regardless of what happens with him, I have decided that I am going to leave penair as soon as my contract is up. I am going to go try to go work for Air Wisconsin and fly the CRJ200. I know a bunch of people who work there, so I should be able to get a job easy.

The other good thing about that company is like penair they really don't look to hard at your driving record, and lord knows I need to clean mine up. I try to be as careful as possible. They also only do a 5 year background check, which doesn't really matter for me, but none the less thats the information I have found out so far. I am sure I will found out more as time goes buy.

As for the other guy I have been talking to Jose. He is really sweet, but he is to clingy for me. I always wants me to text him, and he constantly asks me what I am doing. I really like him, and hs cute, but I think he would drive me up a wall eventually.

The only other prospect is Chris. Him and I have been talking allot, and have known each other for a while. He is in the same profession as me and hes almost the same age as me. Our birthdays are almost on the same day. Only two days apart. He actually wants to meet me. Whats funny is he is from Jersey, like Stephen was. Those Jersey boys lmao! Gota love them.

He got hired with Air Wisconsin, so I could possibly have an in with him, weather or not we date or not. Whats cool about him is that he wants the same things I want. He wants a LTR and wants to settle down and have a life with someone. Im excited to meet him, I used to work with him at ATP only he worked at a different location. So ironic.

We will see what happens, I have to fly to the pribbs this afternoon with Glen Hart......fun!